This blog was started on May 14th. Sorry it's so late.
Another month without a fill. How awesome is that? Another 7 lbs gone this month!!!
Dr. Long’s scale 244.7 (70 lbs)
While Dr. Long’s scale reflects 70 lbs gone since I met him in January 2010. From my heighest weight, I am 75 lbs gone. I have hit my first goal - to lose more than I did at any time in my life. I can’t really begin to explain how fantastic that feels.
This month has seen many changes. Physical and emotional. I really need to write more often because things are happening and changing so fast, I really don’t remember to capture everything.
I continue to meet once a week with a wonderful counselor who is helping me with the emotional part of my journey. To learn to like myself and give myself the credit I deserve for the hardwork and successes I have. She had me take a personality test recently. The results were very eye opening and pretty spot on to how I think and how I react to things. One of the things it revealed is the constant need for affection and approval. I am an approval whore and it’s one of the things I hate about myself. I have to have constant feed back and never wait for people to give me genuine compliments which always mean more than the ones I have coaxed out of people because I had to say, see what I’ve done? I’m really working on that. If people ask what I’m doing, I tell them about the surgery. I’m not ashamed that I needed the extra help. So what if I did as long as it gets me to a healthy weight.
Another thing I learned is that while I am a people person and love to be with people, I am a little on the shy side as well and need time to recharge my batteries because being around other people wears me out. This would explain why I am enjoying living in my sister’s basement so much. It’s quiet down here and I have lots of time to think and just be. I can recharge my batteries and be ready for the next day.
The other changes that have been happening are the physical changes. OMG. I have to figure out how to post my biggest loser pictures on here. I have muscle tone now. It’s so hard to believe that I was actually ticked off at the hotel in Memphis because their gym was inadequate. Really? Since when did I give a hoot if there was only a treadmill? I guess since I now have a personal trainer who kicks my butt twice a week. Best investment I have ever made. I never thought I would actually look forward to working out. But I love it. I am finally becoming the person I always wanted to be.
I have another fill appointment in two days, so I actually started this blog almost a month ago and am just now getting it posted. I promise, I will write more after Wednesday’s appointment.