It’s been a long time since I blogged. I just re-read my last blog from 2012 and I can say a lot of it is still the same, but so much of me has changed. I’m picking up this blog venture again because today is the day I being a new chapter in my Journey to a new Me! After 4 years and 130 lbs, my Bandzilla is being removed. I am so nervous and scared. What if I balloon up again? What if insurance says I’m too thin to do a revision in January like we think will happen? I can’t go back to being that girl. So I’m going to use my blog to stay accountable and focused. I want to share my story in the event I can help others realize they are normal too J
Last I left off, I was going to talk about July 4th of 2012 and coming the realization that I had learned to listen to the red flags. I dumped the guy (first time I did that in my life) that I had met at the Memorial Day dance and moved on to dating a guy I had known for years from work. Long distance relationship at that. OMG, the energy and excitement of finally dating someone who I secretly had a crush on and found out had one on me was just what I needed at that time in this journey. I will be forever grateful for the time spent together, learning about me, learning that I should be spoiled once in a while. I loved his family and was very sad when his mom passed away about a year after we broke up. We still keep in touch and talk at work (yes, we were co-workers but in different offices). The woman who snags him will be very lucky and very special.
Moving on to January of 2013. That was the month I met Sam. Sam and I started out as friends first but by March of that year knew this was going to be a permanent relationship. Sam has taught me patience (most of the time) and most importantly he has taught me love doesn’t hurt. Being in a healthy relationship is so different than anything either of us have ever known. I’ll venture more into that over time. For now I am so happy with my personal life. Not always good when you’re trying to lose weight because you get complacent with your habits. I have been complacent a lot lately.
I’m hurrying to write this because I have to finish packing my bag and taking a shower so we can head to the hospital. I was so worried I would be starving this morning because I can’t eat anything before surgery and I’m not scheduled until 3:00. I miss water and my coffee more than I do food this morning.
So, join me followers as we begin Phase 2 of the journey to a new me.